February 2010
66 posts
A couple of days ago I saw old couples dancing to jazz music from the 20’s. They all looked so happy. And in the midst of them were a young couple, and when I saw them I so wished that you could have been there so I could have asked you to dance with me.
Oh vanity
Get far away from me
Let me see things
In a clearer light
But is there really another way for me
To watch this world
In all its bright and glory
In in all its fear and confusion
Trying to understand
With your hands covering my sight.
Well where we’re headed to
I don’t have to slightest idea
And I have to realize
That I will go through this alone
You may try to understand me
And I will think I get you
But then I’ll find something new
I never realized about you
And you’ll find how precipitable I am
And I’ll over-analyze everything you do
I’ll probably think I can do better
Or...
Tallest Man On Earth - King Of Spain.
My fears:
1. You’ll grow bored of me.
2. I won’t ever get to where I think I’m going. (but half of the time I don’t know where that is)
3. I will be one of these people who give up on their dreams. (but when have you tried for too long, when should you give up?)
4. I won’t ever find someone who I could imagine spending my life with and having children together...
I have no idea what kind of life I want to live
I don’t know if it is this right here right now
But I am aware of that this is what I get
This is all that I get
I choose to spend my time in whatever way I want to
But it’s not really true
Because there’s so much coincidence
So much chance and timing
And the fact that you’re not here
Makes it so much harder.
Remember the day when I left home to buy some food
Me and myself in that February mood
